To have or not to have.....

So with the baby coming religion is brought up as an issue. Whether or not I will choose to have the baby blessed or not or if I will allow he or she to attend primary and honestly I am still on the fence where both of those issues are concerned. I will say this I am a spiritual person I believe in the holy trinity and a higher being concept- but, organized religion? Not so much. I was raised going to church but it just never seemed right to me. There was always something that was a little off and I think that would be about the people. Most of the people were nice but I remember thinking you know here we are supposed to be preaching about loving one another and not being taught to judge but you know what I saw that sort of thing happening all around me. People who wouldn't let their children play with other children because they had different beliefs then they did. Wow what fantastic examples you are! Is that supposed to make you better? You sure aren't setting a "christ like example" by doing that. If anything you are showing how close minded you are and people like you make me sick. People like you are why I don't believe in organzied religion. You know it's not just the mormon religion that practices that sort of "hate" it would be all religions. Isn't the goal of religion to recruit those who are lost and out of the fold? How are you expecting to do that when you islolate them and make them defensive and offeneded by your actions? That is a question that I ask. Do I want to raise my child around people like that? I was very lucky that my parents weren't the type of people to restrict who my friends were because of choice of religion or lack there of. I had many friends who didn't attend church when I was younger and those who attended different churches. That didn't make them a bad person they were just raised differently. Religion can serve a function but it can also be used as a tool of judgement. I hope that the world my child grows up in regardless of whether I choose to have her participate in religion or I don't not be subject to some of the things that I saw or even expierenced by watching people and friends that I love being treated different because they attended a different church then what was considered "the norm". What I hate the most is those that try to push their beliefs on you and when you tell them that you aren't interested they become defensive. I could have swore that when we were born onto this earth there was this word... and the meaning of the word that really were supposed to be the case scenario. Free agency. Freedom of choice. Why bother to get defensive because someone has a different view of things and life then you do? Oh well not a big deal. But as for whether I am going to have the baby blessed or not... I really don't know where the church is concerned i feel extremely burned and disillusioned. I really don't think that there is a way to change that because even things that have happened recently didn't help to make that much better..... Oh well though this just proves another point that I really don't want those people to influence the life of my child.