and the wait continues.............

So despite all my hopes yesterday there was no confirmation of boy or girl... Though the doctor said like me he suspects that it's a girl but we will just have to wait a few weeks and see! It was hard enough to wait this long without thinking that the wait wasn't going to kill me so we will have to see how the next wait goes. I hope that all goes well though and I am able to find out for sure! I would like to say that I am brave and patient enough to wait and find out the gender in June when the baby is born but.......... I don't think that I have that kind of patience maybe if I ever have another child I will wait but it's much easier I think when you know! So now the wait for the next 3 weeks to pass will be a long one but I can do it. I suppose eventually I could get some pictures posted on but, I am not so good with that kind of thing so that may be something in time that I learn but in the mean time the wait begins!

I can feel the excitement in the air!

Today there is an amazing vibe! I could feel the excitement as soon as I woke up. Took me about a minute to realize what day it was..... Then when I did it really made my morning very exciting. Pretty much anyone that knows me knows that I am not a fan of Bush. So this day has been a long time in coming for me. I will admit that President Obama was not my first choice in the beginning I was a huge Hillary Clinton supporter but, over time since he won the primary I have actually found that maybe he is the right candidate for the job. I am very optimistic about him at the helm of our country. We need someone who is still able to have a postivie outlook and who believes that change is possible. I feel blessed that my child will be born during such a historic presidency! I still have hope that sometime in my lifetime I will live to see a woman as president. I am sure that time will come. But it's so fantastic! I can just feel the excitement in the air. I have high hopes that even though it will take time that eventually we will be able to surface from the mess that we are in and I know that change starts today.

Team Pink or Team Blue...............

Hoping to find out a week from Thursday!

To have or not to have.....

So with the baby coming religion is brought up as an issue. Whether or not I will choose to have the baby blessed or not or if I will allow he or she to attend primary and honestly I am still on the fence where both of those issues are concerned. I will say this I am a spiritual person I believe in the holy trinity and a higher being concept- but, organized religion? Not so much. I was raised going to church but it just never seemed right to me. There was always something that was a little off and I think that would be about the people. Most of the people were nice but I remember thinking you know here we are supposed to be preaching about loving one another and not being taught to judge but you know what I saw that sort of thing happening all around me. People who wouldn't let their children play with other children because they had different beliefs then they did. Wow what fantastic examples you are! Is that supposed to make you better? You sure aren't setting a "christ like example" by doing that. If anything you are showing how close minded you are and people like you make me sick. People like you are why I don't believe in organzied religion. You know it's not just the mormon religion that practices that sort of "hate" it would be all religions. Isn't the goal of religion to recruit those who are lost and out of the fold? How are you expecting to do that when you islolate them and make them defensive and offeneded by your actions? That is a question that I ask. Do I want to raise my child around people like that? I was very lucky that my parents weren't the type of people to restrict who my friends were because of choice of religion or lack there of. I had many friends who didn't attend church when I was younger and those who attended different churches. That didn't make them a bad person they were just raised differently. Religion can serve a function but it can also be used as a tool of judgement. I hope that the world my child grows up in regardless of whether I choose to have her participate in religion or I don't not be subject to some of the things that I saw or even expierenced by watching people and friends that I love being treated different because they attended a different church then what was considered "the norm". What I hate the most is those that try to push their beliefs on you and when you tell them that you aren't interested they become defensive. I could have swore that when we were born onto this earth there was this word... and the meaning of the word that really were supposed to be the case scenario. Free agency. Freedom of choice. Why bother to get defensive because someone has a different view of things and life then you do? Oh well not a big deal. But as for whether I am going to have the baby blessed or not... I really don't know where the church is concerned i feel extremely burned and disillusioned. I really don't think that there is a way to change that because even things that have happened recently didn't help to make that much better..... Oh well though this just proves another point that I really don't want those people to influence the life of my child.