Soon we will be buried in snow....

Don't get me wrong... I like the snow I really do and I know that it serves a good purpose so I am all for it snowing but.... I just wish it would stay off the roads or stay only up in the mountains. I am not saying that because I am a horrible driver in the snow. I wouldn't say it's my favorite thing in the world it's just I dont' trust other drivers that are out on the road with me. I don't pretend when I go out that I have this awesome car that handles like a snow mobile when I am out there i know what my car is capable of and when I watch other people who are driving the same type of car as me or something similar like oh honda civics or toyota corollas who act like we are on the Indy 500 track I think you konw those are the people that I am afraid of... But it's been snowing almost every day for over a week now. It doesn't ever seem to want to let up I feel like soon enough we will have to litterally dig out every morning in order to get somewhere- Though the bright side to this would be living in such a dry climate we really need all the stored moisture and water that we can get so that makes it better but still I just think that snow would be more useful up in the mountains than in the valleys unless it just had some kind of special router that would make it so that it avoided the roads and just landed on the grass and rooftops not on walkways either. Hey a girl can wish!

Sometimes I wonder if there possibly wasn't a mix up at the hospital.

Yes... I truly believe that to be a completely legitimate question until I spend time around my father's side of the family. Unfortunatly we all look alike so that sort of basically puts the ki-bosh on that thought but still.... You never know.

Saying that I walked to the beat of a different drum then the rest of the people in my family would be an understatement.
~First would be that I am a very liberal democrat. You will never catch me ever voting Repbulican. Sean Hannity drives me insane sometimes when I am out at lunch and I know is show is on I just can't help but listen to the crap that just seems to flow without thought out of his mouth.... Then I wonder if he know how egotistical he sounded thinking that everything that he thinks is right and how we wouldn't be in this mess if Obama had been elected president... Then I have to ask myself wow... You would think that he was the idiot that was in office the last 8 years- He just needs to realize that this problem was created when Republican was put into office to begin with. Honestly it still surprises me to this day that I find myself drawn to politics and things like that I will even say that I went to many many anti- Mr. Bush rallies. I was there with my signs and ready to March against injustice and my freedom of speech.

I believe even if I do raise this baby alone that it doesn't make me a bad person. I am a huge believer that things happen for a reason and even though sometimes we don't quite understand that at the time the answer shows later. People may not agree with me and think that I am making the wrong decision but who are they to judge? Just because to you it doesn't fit inside a pretty box with pretty wrapping that doesn't mean it's wrong. People may not agree with my decision or the choices that I make in my life but they are my choices I am aware of the consequences... I am aware of the choices and my the reaction to my actions and I don't ask you to agree with the things that I do. I don't ask for pity and I don't ask for support. If you don't agree with me that is fine. If I want opinions on things I will ask for them. I don't expect this to be easy and a piece of cake and that I will be the perfect parent. I am sure that I will make mistakes and I will have a hard time but it's going to be something for me. Things happen for a reason I don't believe that there are mistakes that are just expierences that you learn from. It wasn't something that was planned but it happened for a reason and I intend to treat it that way not as a mistake but as something that was supposed to be.

Out in the open

Well it's all out there in the open now....

I can honestly say that things weren't quite as bad as i expected them to be but they weren't as good as I hoped that they could be. Only time will tell how the situation resolves itself.

If there is any confusion to anyone that happens to be reading this I didn't come out as a lesbian or anything like that though I am sure that would have garnered slightly more positive results then what actually came out. I am expecting a baby. I didn't think that they would estatic beyond belief and I knew that they wouldn't be happy but some of the things that were said and came out after were not exactly things that I was hoping that I would hear. This is my child and I am not asking anything of them. I can figure out daycare I can figure out what needs to be done. That doesn't mean that I want or need to move back in with them and I don't need my mom to stop working so that she can stay home with the baby that is the last thing that I need or would even want. I am telling them because they had a right to know beyond that what happens shouldn't be any concern to or for them. I will find a way and make things work. If that means that I need to move then so be it but I will not move into their house with them I will do this on my own. I don't need or want their help.

Awestruck

It's now been 2 days since the world changing elections. We have our first African American President. It's still really hard to believe. There were alot of matters during this last election that caused alot of friction and alot of upset for many people. In California they had proposition 8 which if passed would ban gay marriage. That was quite the huge deal. I do have to admit I was a very sad when that ban passed. It's very disapointing. I am not meaning for myself but for those I know who that denies rights for them to be with the one that they love in a recognized union. I believe that everyone should have the right to be with the one that they love regardless of race, gender or any other matter. Everyone is entitled to be miserable and who are we to deny that right to them? If anything that just reaffirms my lack of desire to ever be married. Why should I be able to marry someone that I love when I have friends that wouldn't be able to do the same? How is that considered fair? It's legalized segregration.... I just don't get how people can say that a marriage between 2 people of the same sex ruins marriage and causes the decline of family. It's not like because it's legal people will be okay there saying switch to this side or like they can make you become gay....like they are going to convert you- Honestly how ridiculous is that? Seriously. It's a shame it really is. As a county in many ways we have come along way from even just a few decades ago but in other ways are are just as behind as ever. I feel awestruck thinkng about all those things and amazed. I hope that one day we are able to all be equal in every aspect and everyone can have the same rights as I do.